Lock me up 
Throw out the key 
Let my rot in disparity 
No pain no gain
That's what they say
Speak your words
You'll die in vain 
Like a dam slowly cracking
Soon it will break
Flooding everything
So lock me up
Throw out the key 
Let my rot in disparity 
Drowning in your words
Surrounding me
For all of eternity 

Amber R. Roan
1.21.11

You spit your words out
With no effort 
Caring not of who you hurt
Like a rich man
You take but do not give 
Piece by piece 
You rip it apart
And like paper, once it's been crumpled 
It can never be perfect again
Your words are like dull knives 
Don't cut deep
But leaving a sharp 
Agonizing pain 


Amber R. Roan
1.21.11

Me and You

My fantasies and dreams are two different things
But consume all the same
Life and death
Love and hate
A beautiful catastrophe   
Lies mixed with the truth
Me, and you

Amber R. Roan
1.18.11

Let You Go Or Hold On Tight?

Because everything i do reminds me of you
Don't get me wrong,
I'm glad your gone 
But it's almost like I miss you
Maybe it's what we used to be
What we used to do
I'm just sick of thinking of you
You are as good as gone
As gone as last year
But some how
You're still here
If I could erase 
Make it go away
Edit the picture
Cut you out for good
Believe me, I would
Because everything I do reminds me of you
Don't get me wrong,
I'm glad your gone 
But it's almost like I miss you


Amber R. Roan
1.17.11

It's what's you keep inside
What you've kept lock away
That bleeds through your eyes
It's what you despise 
But can not hide 


Amber R. Roan
 1.19.11

A river runs deep
It glows a different shade of red 
A sweet smell fills the air
A bright light, glowing like fire 
I stand still, can't move
Yet it all gets closer 
A door, says not to enter
I walk through it with no effort
The river leads to a lake of unfortunate past mistakes
Started at the one simple vain
My blood boils beneath porcelain skin
Every scar rising to the surface again

Amber R. Roan
1.13.11

Lost In Time?

If I could rewind, just to see how it might have been
Different, the same?
If I could take back things I said
Words that should have never escaped
Tasted so right at the time
If I could go back
Show you what I really meant
When I said I can't live with out you
I didn't know I meant it this much
Over a year and I still miss you, your soft touch
I crave that feeling I used to get
Just by looking into your eyes
I play that song
Close my eyes
It all plays, it feels so real
I can smell you
Like you are right beside me
Why aren't you beside me
Slowly starting to fade
The picture becomes unclear
I don't want it to leave, disapear
If I could live in my thoughts...
But back to reality I must fall
If I could rewind, just to see
Would things be different?
If I could take back things I said
And show you what I really wanted to say
Would things be different
Is this, what this is, really what it's meant to be
Because something that is right
Shouldn't hurt
Not this much
It's called braking, it's broken
If I could rewind, just to see
Would we be different
Better or worse?
If I could rewind, just to see how it might have been
Different, the same?
If we had the chance would you take it?

Amber R. Roan
1.6.11